CPTSD cold case

  THE FLOWER OF RECOLLECTION A Three-Chapter Kaleidoscope of Memory, Record, and Integration PRESERVE   •   INDEX   •   COMPARE   •   CORROBORATE   •   INVESTIGATE   Brian “Happy” Bryanson   A NOTE TO THE READER   “Working rule: a dated writing can document what was recorded and when without independently proving the underlying event described in that writing.” This storybook is a literary and visual adaptation of a dated autobiographical journal. It guides the reader through three movements: an anniversary trigger, the return of fragmented childhood imagery, and the search for language capable of holding a complex dissociative experience. The flower-petal system does not declare that every remembered scene is independently established. Instead, it gives different kinds of material their own visible spaces: recollection, documentation, potentially corroborable detail, i...

  A Letter From the Amnesic Phoenix Twenty Voices From My Archive and a Request to Help Send the Dead Home BRIAN HAPPY BRYANSON    CPTSD COLD CASE To Jeannette Walls, Tara Westover, Patrick Carnes, Adrienne Brodeur, Cheryl Diamond, and Fox Butterfield Dear Ms. Walls, Ms. Westover, Dr. Carnes, Ms. Brodeur, Ms. Diamond, and Mr. Butterfield: I am writing because each of you has explored survival, family secrecy, exploitation, poverty, trauma, moral injury, or the difficult construction of a life after childhood harm. I am asking you to meet me through the words and images I have preserved since memories began returning in 1997. My name is Brian “Happy” Bryanson. I am a writer, former foster father, disability advocate, and former clinical social worker. I call my creative identity the Amnesic Phoenix. My archive contains poetry, short stories, journals, maps, victim-reference sheets, correspondence, and visual testimony. Its humanitarian purpose is Send the...