JOURNAL ENTRY: DOUBLE HELIX OF INFINITY 2017

 

 

 

DOUBLE HELIX OF INFINITY

TODAY I AM STILL REELING FROM THE CHIEF OF POLICE AND HOW HE WROTE BACK THAT HIS FILES SIMPLY DIDN’T GO BACK THAT FAR, HE THEN TOLD ME TO COME IN AND MAKE A REPORT TO ONE OF HIS DETECTIVES AND WHAT I HAVE SAID IN MORE THAN ONE LETTER OVER AND OVER IS THAT GOING TO ANY POLICE DEPARTMENT WOULD BE VERY TRIGGERING TO ME.  THIS IS WHERE THIS CHAPTER IN MY LIFE IS STUCK AND JUSTICE FOR ALL THE VICTIMS.  STUCK AT MY MENTAL ILLNESS AND THEIR DESIRE TO FOLLOW STANDARD RULES WHICH REALLY DO NOT WORK FOR THE MENTALLY ILL, I HOPE AND PRAY HE CHANGES HIS MIND AND THE FIRST OF MANY DOMINOES WILL FALL THUS BEGINNING THE ROAD TO THE END.  THIS ON TOP OF THE EVENTS OF THE DAY IS STAGGERING TO SAY THE LEAST.  I WAS SO OUT OF IT AT THE END OF THE DAY THAT I JUST SHUFFLED MYSELF TO MY TRUCK AND REALLY WAS THINKING ABOUT HOW TO FIND OUT NAMES FOR THOSE THAT WENT MISSING.  I HAD CALLED THE IRVING LIBRARY AND SPOKE TO SOMEONE IN THE ARCHIVES ABOUT THE IRVING DAILY NEWS AND IF THEY HAD THE MICROFICHE.  THEY DO BUT THEY ARE NOT OPEN ON SATURDAY’S MEANING I WOULD HAVE TO TAKE A DAY OFF AND THIS CANNOT BE EXHAUSTIVELY RESEARCHED IN A DAY.  I WAS WALKING DOWN THE LONG EMPLOYEE HALL AND NOTICED THAT THERE WAS A PERSON IN FRONT OF ME WHO KEPT TURING AROUND AND LOOKING AT ME.  I COULDN’T MAKE OUT THERE FACE AND THEN ONCE I WAS OUTSIDE I NOTICED THAT THE PERSON MUST HAVE JOGGED TO HAVE MADE THE DISTANCE BETWEEN THE DOOR AND THE PARKING LOT THEY HAD COVERED.  I KEPT WALKING TO WHERE I PARK MY TRUCK AND THEN I HEARD NAMES BEING CALLED OUT AND I RAISED MY HEAD AND WAVED AND NO ONE WAVED BACK.  I THEN REALIZED MY TRUCK WAS NOT IN IT’S USUAL SPOT I WAS SO OUT OF IT THAT I HAD FORGOTTEN THAT I PARKED CLOSER TO THE DOOR AFTER I RETURNED FROM LUNCH.  IT WAS THEN THAT THE WOMEN FROM THE CHARITY DEPARTMENT WHO HAS ALWAYS BEEN NICE TO ME WALKED RIGHT PAST ME JUST FEET AWAY AND REFUSED TO ACKNOWLEDGE MY PRESENCE, SHE HAS NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE.  THE PERSON WHO HAD MADE SUCH A DISTANCE WAS STACY LANE AND THE PERSON WHO WAS WITH HER WAS AMY THE ONE THAT MADE THE INITIAL COMPLAINT WHICH WAS NOT TRUE.  THIS MEANS THAT PEOPLE WHO ONCE RESPECTED ME AND WOULD STOP TO SAY HELLO HAVE NOW DECIDED THAT I AM A BAD PERSON WHO THEY DO NOT WISH TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH.  THIS MEANS BY NO FAULT OF MY OWN I AM BEING PERSECUTED AND MY REPUTATION IS BEING HARMED.  WOW IN THE SAME DAY THAT I AM TRYING TO SOLVE CRIMES AND HELP WOMEN THESE WOMEN HAVE BANDED TOGATHER IN SOLIDARITY AGAINST ME.  THERE MUST BE SOME TYPE OF IRONY IN THIS WHAT I FOCUS UPON IS WHAT CAN I LEARN BUT WHAT I REALLY WANT IS FOR THIS ALL TO END.  I THINK THAT IF I CAN GET TO THE IRVING DAILY NEWS MICROFICHE AND LOOK FOR EDITORS AND REPORTERS WHO MAY STILL BE LIVING THAT I COULD ASK THEM ABOUT WHAT CASES THEY REMEMBER ABOUT THE MISSING.  THIS IS A DOUBLE HELIX OF INFINITY IT SEEMS, I CANNOT ESCAPE THE NEGATIVE EVEN THOUGH I AM WORKING SO HARD TO MAKE A POSITIVE.  HAPPY