JOURNAL ENTRY: TO MANY VICTIMS FROM ONE FAMILY 2025

 

 

TOO MANY VICTIMS FROM ONE FAMILY

TODAY I AM SORE AND HAVE BEEN SLEEPING FOR THE LAST 3 DAYS JUST TOO EXHAUSTED TO GET OUT OF MY RECLINER, NO JOKE I SLEPT 20 HOURS A DAY.  RIGHT NOW, MY PAIN IS ABOUT AN 8 AND MY LEGS ARE SOREST FOR WHAT EVER REASON.  I HAD A HUGE FLASHBACK LAST NIGHT I HAVEN’T HAD ONE THIS BIG IN SOME TIME.  IT HAS EXHAUSTED ME SO MUCH THAT JUST STANDING TAKES WAY TOO MUCH ENERGY.  IT’S THE OUTSIDE OF MY QUADS THAT HURT THE MOST AND THE MIDDLE FINGER OF BOTH HANDS LEADING INTO THE CENTER OF MY PALM.  I COULD FALL ASLEEP RIGHT HERE AT STARBUCKS IF I LET MYSELF.  MY LAST TRIP HERE MADE A LOT OF CONNECTIONS BUT NO RELEASES JUST INTENSIFIED MY PAIN.

THIS WHOLE SAGA IS LIKE A PSYCH INVESTIGATION WHERE MY SUBCONSCIOUS HOLDS EVIDENCE THAT IT SLOWLY LEAKS OUT WHILE MY CONSCIOUS PUTS THE CLUES TOGETHER.  IM BUILDING PROFILES ABOUT KILLERS BASED ON WHAT I LIVED THROUGH AND PAINSTAKINGLY DISCOVER OVER TIME AS MY MEMORIES COME BACK.  I REALLY THINK MY PERSONALITY THAT I WAS BORN WITH MADE THIS ALL POSSIBLE.  OTHER PERSONALITIES WOULD HAVE BEEN SELF-DESTRUCTIVE AND DIED TOO SOON TO COMPLETE THE TASK OF REVEALMENT.  WHILE OTHER TYPES OF PERSONALITIES WOULD HAVE JOINED THE DARK SIDE AND BECOME LIKE THEM.  MY PERSONALITY SEEMS TO SOMEHOW BALANCE OUT THE ABUSE AND THE PAIN IN AS PRODUCTIVE A MANNER AS COULD BE EXPECTED.  I WONDER HOW MANY OF MY LEARNING DISABILITIES PLAY A PART.  IT’S TRULY LIKE A WOUNDED PERSON LIMPING THROUGH A BATTLEFIELD FULL OF DESTROYED MILESTONES OF DEVELOPMENT WHERE HALF OF THE CASUALTIES ARE A PART OF YOU AND THE OTHER HALF ARE REAL PEOPLE WHO LOST THEIR LIVES IN THE MELEE OF THE HATERS.  MY AMNESIAC STATE WAS THE HOLE THAT I HAD TO CREATE AND HID IN TO SURVIVE THE NUKES.  MY UNCONSCIOUS BECAME MY FALLOUT SHELTER.

I REMEMBER IN PINEVILLE LOUISIANA WHEN ROBERT AND I HAD LEFT FOR SOME TIME AND THEN HE DROVE BACK AND MET GLENDA AT THE CORNER STORE.  I SAW HER IN HER CAR WITH HER WINDOW DOWN AND I BURST INTO TEARS SINCE I COULDN’T GO TO HER AND ROBERT WAS DRIVING AWAY.  SOMETHING FRACTURED THAT DAY I FELT LOKE I WAS DYING BECAUSE I COULDN’T BREATHE AND MY EYES WENT DARK IN THE BACK SEAT AND I PASSED OUT.  BUT WHAT FRACTURED WHAT PART OF ME DIED?

BEEN UNABLE TO SLEEP FOR DAYS AT TIMES DUE TO FLASHBACKS AND THE SCREAMS OF SUFFERING I HEAR IN MY EARS THEN DUE TO PAIN AND EXHAUSTION I FALL ASLEEP HARD AND I COULD BE OUT FROM 12 TO 20 HOURS ONLY TO WAKE UP SORE AND WORE OUT LIKE I HAD BEEN BEATEN DURING THE NIGHT. 

BOTH ROBERT AND MAX LIKED TO SEE THEIR VICTIMS DECAY.  THEY BOTH WOULD GO BACK AND REVISIT PLACES THAT THEY LEFT THEM.  I THINK THAT MAX WENT BACK FOR THE POWER OF CONTROL HE STILL OWNED THAT VICTIM ALL WHILE WATCHING THE SUFFERING OF THOSE IN TOWN AND HEARING THEIR SORROW.  MAX COULD STRETCH OUT THE SUFFERING OF VICTIM PAST THEIR DEATH BY KNOWING WHERE THE DEAD PERSON WAS AND NOT GIVING IT UP.  I KNOW THAT MAX, GLENDA, AND ROBERT ALL LIKED TO HEAR THE STORIES OF THE MISSING AND TO PUT THEMSELVES INTO THE MIX LIKE A BY STANDER AND GLENDA’S KINK WAS TO OFFER HER SUPPORT TO THOSE IN PAIN AND CRY WITH THEM AND ESPECIALLY PRAY AND TALK ABOUT GODS PLAN.  ROBERT ENJOYED HAVING A PIECE OF CLOTHING OR JEWELRY HIDDEN SOMEWHERE AND TO PULL IT OUT WHEN HE THOUGHT HE WAS ALONE AND ENJOY THE MOMENT AGAIN.  HE WENT BACK TO THE BODIES FOR INTIMACY PURPOSES.  HE HAD THESE ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS WHERE HE WOULD TALK KIND AND THEN CRY AS HE HAD REMORSE FOR WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN IN HIS MIND.  I THINK IT WAS SAFER FOR HIM TO IMAGINE THE PERFECT RELATIONSHIP WHEN THE PERSON WAS DEAD AND ONLY, HE COULD REJECT THEM THEY COULDN’T REJECT HIM.  MAX OFTEN RE-ASSAULTED HIS VICTIMS WITH WHAT HE CALLED HIS BULL STICK, HE WOULD HIT THEM AND THRASH AT THEM ESPECIALLY THEIR HEADS AND VAGINAL AREAS WHILE CALLING THEM WHORES AND SLUTS AND TELLING THEM STORIES ABOUT HOW THEIR LOVED ONES ARE LOOKING FOR THEM AND THINGS HE SAID TO THE LOVED ONES AS HE FEIGNED CONCERN THEN HE WOULD LAUGH.  GLENDA LIKED TO REVISIT WOMEN WHO ROBERT HAD CHAINED UP BY THE NECK FOR HER. SHE OFTEN TOOK ME WITH HER AS COVER OR SIMPLY SINCE THEIR WAS NO ONE ELSE TO WATCH ME.  I OFTEN KNEW THESE WOMEN AS TEACHERS AT SCHOOL OR CHURCH.  GLENDA WOULD SIT JUST OUTSIDE THEIR REACH AND TELL THEM ALL ABOUT WHO WAS MISSING THEM AND WHAT SHE HAD TOLD THEM IN A MIMICKING MANNER AND HOW PEOPLE IN THAT WOMAN’S FAMILY WHERE STARTING TO FAIL HEALTH WAYS AND THAT EVENTUALLY THEY ALL WOULD MOVE ON SINCE THE WOMAN WOULDN’T EVEN HAVE A GRAVESTONE TO MORN AT.  THEN GLENDA WOULD TELL THEM HOW SHE WAS SPREADING A RUMOR THAT THEY HAD RAN OFF WITH A BLACK MAN OR A MEXICAN OR WAS HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH THE LOCAL DRUNK.  SHE WOULD DO THIS FOR HOURS WHILE EATING OUT OF A PICNIC BASKET.  SHE HAD BROUGHT.  IF THIS DID NOT SUFFICE HER, SHE WOULD USE A CLUB OR A STICK AND ATTACK THE WOMEN WHO WAS WEAK DUE TO EXPOSURE AND AT TIMES DUNK THEIR HEADS INTO POOLS OF WATER OR MUD.  SHE WOULD EVEN BRING ROBERT BACK TO SIT THEIR AND TAUNT THEM TOGETHER AND WATCH ROBERT RAPE THEM WHILE GLENDA CALLED THEM SLUTS AND WHORES.  (THIS LAST PART RELEASED SOMETHING I FEEL SORENESS GOING AWAY NOT ALL OF IT BUT SOME)

IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE FOR WOMEN TO REPORT RAPE IN THE 70’S THEY WOULD BE RIDICULED AND MADE OUT TO BE A WHORE WHO WANTED MONEY.  IF ROBERT HAD A BUDDY ON THE FORCE OR WAS PAYING ONE OF THE OFFICERS THEN THEY WOULD WORK FROM THE INSIDE TO DENOUNCE THE WOMEN AND HER SOCIAL STATUS WOULD DROP ESPECIALLY IF SHE WAS POOR.  ONCE HER SOCIAL STATUS WOULD DROP THEN OUT WOULD COME EVERY PERVERT THAT KNEW HER WAITING FOR THEIR CHANCE TO RAPE HER SINCE NO ONE WOULD BELIEVE HER.  ROBERT, MAX, GLENDA, AND JOW MAX ALONG WITH STELLA JEAN MOST LIKELY PLANNED FOR THAT AS A WAY TO SHUT UP A VICTIM.  THEY WOULD STILL BE HUNTED DOWN AND KILLED BY THESE INDIVIDUALS BUT THE COVER STORY WOULD BE ENHANCED ABOUT THEM HAVING RUN AWAY SINCE THEY WHERE ASHAMED DUE TO THE MOST RECENT EVENTS.  THIS PART OF SOCIETY WAS CREATED FOR SEX OFFENDERS TO REIGHN.

I STAY ALONE A LOT SINCE FAILURE WHEN YOUR ALONE IS MUCH EASIER WHEN YOU ARE BY YOUR SELF.  I CANNOT LET ANYONE DOWN BUT MYSELF AND I HAVE LEARNED TO BE VERY KIND TO MY SELF OVER THE YEARS.  ESPECIALLY SINCE I LEFT THE HOUSE OF HATE.

I CAN FIGHT SUICIDAL IDEATIONS BETTER LIVING ON THE FARM.  JUST KNOWING THAT I AM CLOSE TO SOME PART OF FAMILY HELPS ME TO STABILIZE.  FEELING ALONE IS VERY PROFOUND AND MAKES LONELINESS JUST SO POWERFUL AND ITS LONELINESS THAT OFTEN LEADS TO SUICIDAL IDEATION

SOMETIMES A FLASHBACK STARTS LIKE AN EXPLOSION IN YOUR HEAD AND OTHER TIMES LIKE A WHISPER ON THE WIND. WHEATHER IT’S A CRACK OF THUNDER OR A BREEZE IT ALL LEADS TO PAIN.

THE DAYS SINCE MY LAST ENTRY HAVE BEEN REALLY ROUGH, I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN AND EXHAUSTION THE ENTIRE TIME.  I DON’T EVEN TAKE IBUPROFEN IT DOESN’T DO A THING.

MAX WAS DRIVING AND ROBERT OF WAS IN THE PASSENGER SEAT OF THE OLD FARM TRUCK.  WE ALL HAD JACKETS ON AND IT LOOKED LIKE WINTER OUTSIDE THE WINDOW.  I WAS MAYBE SIX YEARS OLD, I STILL COULDN’T SEE BEYOND THE DASH BOARD EXCEPT WHEN THE TRUCK BOUNCED AND MAX WAS IN A HURRY SO THE TRUCK BOUNCED A LOT.  I HAD REFUSED TO GET INTO THE TRUCK WITH ROBERT AND MAX SO THEY CHASED ME DOWN AND HURT ME UNTIL I GOT INTO THE TRUCK.  I WAS LIMP FROM THIS BEATING AND HE BEAR HUGGED ME UNTIL I PASSED OUT AND THEN CARRIED ME TO THE TRUCK AND THREW ME IN.  I CAME TOO TASTING MY OWN BLOOD THEN NOTICED THAT WE WHERE OUT IN A PASTURE THAT I DIDN’T KNOW AND HAD NEVER BEEN IN, WE HAD DRIVEN FOR A VERY LONG TIME IT SEEMED.  ROBERT GOT A CALL FROM MAX AND THEN HE TOLD ME TO GET INTO THE CAR WE DROVE AND PARKED THAT CAR AT A MECHANICS PLACE AND ROBERT TALKED TO THE MECHANIC WHO THEN POINTED TO ANOTHER CAR AND WE TOOK THAT ONE.  IT WAS OLD AND THE WIND CAME THROUGH THE WINDOWS AND IT WAS REALLY COLD.  EVENTUALLY WE MADE IT TO MAX’S HOUSE AND THEN WE FOLLOWED HIM OVER TO UNCLE JOE’S HOUSE.  JOE MAX AND STELLA JEAN WHERE BOTH OUTSIDE WAITING FOR US AND THEY FOLLOWED US FOR HOURS AND HOURS IT SEEMED.  WE ALL SLEPT IN OUR VEHICLES AT A GAS STATION AFTER HAVING EATEN STUFF FROM INSIDE.  I HAD TO USE THE BATHROOM THERE AND IT WAS REALLY GROSS AND IF IT HADN’T BEEN SO COLD AND WINDY I WOULD HAVE CHOSEN THE BUSHES.  WE BEGAN TO DRIVE AGAIN AND ROBERT WAS POINTING THE WAY DOWN THESE DIRT ROADS AND SEEMED TO KNOW WHERE HE WAS GOING.  MAX PARKED IN WHAT SEEMED TO BE JUST FIELDS AND TREES.  ROBERT PULLED ME OUT AND TOLD ME THAT THEY WANTED ME TO WALK THROUGH THESE WOODS AND STAND IN FRONT OF THIS HOUSE AND WAIT UNTIL THE PEOPLE CAME OUT AND THEN RUN BACK THROUGH THE WOODS TO THE TRUCK.  I WOULDN’T DO IT I KNEW SOMETHING BAD WAS GOING TO HAPPEN AND THEN THEY BOTH ATTACKED ME AND WHEN I WAS LAYING IN THE DIRT THEY WHERE KICKING ME IN MY HEAD.  THEY PULLED ME UP AND ROBERT DRAGGED ME THROUGH THE WOODS AND PUT ME IN A PLACE TO STAND.  I DIDN’T KNOW WHY I WAS STANDING THERE I ONLY KNEW THAT THESE PEOPLE IN THE HOUSE WERE STARTING TO COME OUT AND SHOUT AT ME IN SPANISH.  THEN THEY STARTED TO WALK TOWARD ME AND I GOT SCARED AND TOOK OFF RUNNING MOST OF THEM FOLLOWED ME.  WHEN I EXITED THE WOODS ON THE OTHER SIDE ABOUT 100 YARDS THEY WHERE RIGHT BEHIND ME.  THEN MAX SHOT INTO THE AIR AND HIM AND ROBERT POINTED THE GUNS AT THE BOYS AND PUSHED EACH ONE DOWN ON THEIR BELLIES.  ROBERT PUT HANDCUFFS ON THEM AND THEN CHAINED THEIR NECKS TOGETHER USING MORE THAN ONE PIECE OF CHAIN.  ROBERT YANKED THEM UP AND PUSHED THEM INTO THE BACK OF THE TRUCK.  JOE MAX AND STELLA JEAN WHERE NO WHERE TO BE SEEN AND WE STARTED TO DRIVE.  WE ENDED UP IN FRONT OF THE HOUSE THAT I HAD BEEN STANDING AT AND JOE MAX AND STELLA JEAN DROVE UP.  THIS OLD LADY CAME OUT AND HAD HER FINGER IN THE IAR WHILE SHE SAID MANY SPANISH WORDS.  STELLA JEAN SHOT HER IN THE LEGS AND STOOD UPON HER LEGS AS THE OLD WOMEN SCREAMED.  STELLA JEAN WAS SAYING SPANISH WORDS NOT SENTENCES BUT WASS BLURTING OUT BROKEN SPANISH JOE MAX WENT INTO THE HOUSE.  MAX AND ROBERT DROVE AWAY WITH ME AND THE BOYS, THERE WHERE ABOUT 5 IN TOTAL, THE ELDEST SEEMED 16 AND THE YOUNGEST ABOUT 10.  THEN WE FOLLOWED WHAT ROBERT SAID TO DO AND WHERE ROBERT SAID TO GO.  WE ENDED UP IN THIS PASTURE THAT HAD A GATE.  WE PULLED ABOUT 200 YARDS IN AND STOPPED ROBERT WAS SHOUTING SOMETHING IN SPANISH AND THESE TWO FIGURES APPEARED WEARING DARK JACKETS LIKE THE BOYS.   THEY MUST HAVE BEEN THE PARENTS THEY LOOK LIKE THEY WHERE PARENTS.  THEY WHERE BOTH SMALL AND BROWN AND THE MAN COULDN’T RAISE HIS HEAD, HE HAD A CHAIN AROUND HIS NECK THAT WAS ATTACHED TO THE WOMAN THEY HAD TO STAND UP TOGETHER FOR HER TO BE ABLE TO SEE IT SEEMED THAT HE WAS BEING SUPPORTED BY HER.  SHE HAD A VERY CONCERNED LOOK ON HER FACE AND THAT SHE HAD BEEN OUT IN THE ELEMENTS FOR SOME TIME.  ROBERT PULLED THE BOYS OUT AND MAX HELD A GUN TO ONE OF THEIR HEADS THESE BOYS JUST LOOKED DOWN AS IF DEFEATED IN SOME WAY NONE CRIED FOR THE WOMAN OR EVEN SEEMED TO MAKE EYE CONTACT. MAX WAS CALLING OUT IN ENGLISH WHERE ARE THE GIRLS. ROBERT WAS CLOSER TO THE WOMAN AND THE WIND WAS REALLY BLOWING.  HE WAS SAYING SOMETHING WHILE HE PULLED HER HAIR AND I COULDN’T UNDERSTAND HIM.  SHE JUST STARED AT THE BOYS AND NEVER MOVED LIKE SHE WAS NUMB AND KNEW WHAT WAS COMING NEXT.  THEN MAX SHOT THAT CHILD IN THE HEAD.  THE WOMAN MADE NO SOUND AND HER FACIAL EXPRESSION DID NOT CHANGE.  THEN THIS HAPPENED AGAIN AND AGAIN UNTIL ALL THE BOYS WHERE DEAD.  ROBERT COLLECTED ALL THE HANDCUFFS AND THE CHAIN AND LOCKS.  THEY TOSSED THEM INTO THE BACK OF THE TRUCK.  I GOT LOADED UP AND WE STARTED TO DRIVE AWAY ROBERT STOPPED THE TRUCK AND HE WAS LOOKING AT SOMETHING IN HIS SIDE MIRROR.  HE JUMPED OUT AND I TURNED AROUND IN MY SEAT TO SEE.  THERE WAS A BOY WITH HIS HANDS OUTSTRETCHED CALLING OUT AND WANDERING AROUND.  ROBERT PUSHED HIM TO THE GROUND AND DRAGGED HIM BACK INTO THE THICKET WHERE HE HAD PLACED ALL THE OTHERS.  THEN AS HE WAS COMING BACK OUT ANOTHER BOY WANDERED OUT AND ROBERT KNOCKED HIM DOWN BUT THE GUN WOULDN’T FIRE.  SO HE WALKED TO MAX’S SIDE OF THE VEHICLE AND GOT SHELLS OUT OF THE GLOVE COMPARTMENT AND BEGAN TO LOAD THE MAGAZINE ON THIS SMALL BLACK HAND GUN.  HE WENT BACK AND AT THIS TIME THE BOY WAS CRAWLING AND SCREAMING.  ROBERT STOMPED HIM DOWN AND THEN SHOT HIM IN THE BACK OF THE HEAD.  HE PULLED HIM INTO THE THICKET AND I HEARD MANY SHOTS.  HE CAME BACK AND GOT IN THE TRUCK.  JUST AS HE DID JOE MAX AND STELLA JEAN PULLED UP AND JOE MAX SAID THEY FOUND THE GIRLS.  ROBERT WENT AND LOOKED AND THEN JOE MAX FOLLOWED ROBERT AND WE DROVE FOR A REALLY LONG TIME HOURS IT SEEMED AND WE EVEN STOPPED AT OLD GAS STATION TO FILL UP AND STELLA JEAN KEPT SHOWING HER HANDGUN THROUGH THE WINDOW OF THE SUBURBAN TO KEEP THE GIRLS QUITE AND THEN WE WHERE ON A DIRT ROAD AND HAD TO DRIVE SLOW DUE TO THE ROAD.  THEN WE ARRIVED AT ANOTHER OLD RANCH HOUSE WHERE ALL THESE MALE MEXICANS WITH MUSTACHES CAME OUT.  THE LEAD ONE WAS SMILING AND STELLA JEAN AND JOE MAX UNLOADED THE GIRLS THERE WHERE 7 OF THEM.  THEY HAD BEEN HANDCUFFED AND CHAINED TOGETHER TOO.  THE LEAD MAN SPOKE IN BROKEN ENGLISH AND IT WAS EVIDENT THAT BOTH ROBERT AND JOE MAX KNEW THIS MAN.  THEN THAT MAN PULLED OUT TWO WADS OF CASH AND HANDED IT OVER TO ROBERT AND MAX AND THEY STARTED TO COUNT IT AND GAVE THE NOD TO STELLA JEAN.  SHE STARTED TO UNDO THEIR CUFFS AND THE CHAIN AROUND THEIR NECKS.  SHE WAS ANGRY THAT THEY WHERE SOBBING AND CRYING AND SHE WAS SLAPPING THEM AND KICKING AT THEM WITH HER HUNTING BOOTS.  EVENTUALLY ALL THE MEN CAME OUT AND GRABBED THE GIRLS AND WHERE SMILING AND SOME EVEN FORCIBLY KISSED THE GIRLS.  THESE GIRLS HAD BLACK JACKETS ON AND BLUE JEANS LIKE THE BOYS.  THE GIRLS WHERE SOBBING AND RESISTING THESE ADVANCES AND SOME TRIED TO RUN.  THEY ALL GOT DRAGGED BACK INTO THE HOUSE.  IT WAS JUST THIS SMALL WHITE RANCH HOUSE SURROUNDED BY PICK-UP TRUCKS.  I REMEMBER THAT THE MOTHER BEGAN TO PRAY AND TOUCH HER FOREHEAD AND SHOULDERS THEN MAX SHOT HER IN THE FACE AND SHOT THE MAN AS HE LAY ON THE GROUND.  WE BEGAN TO DRIVE FOR A VERY LONG TIME AND I FELL ASLEEP.  THEY WOKE ME AT A DAIRY QUEEN AND HAD ME SIT BY MYSELF.  THEN THEY MADE ME RIDE IN THE BACK OF THE SUBURBAN AND IT SMELLED LIKE FECES AND URION.  I FELL ASLEEP THERE TOO AND THEY WOKE ME WHEN WE ARRIVED AT JOE MAX’S HOUSE AND GOT BACK INTO THAT OLD CAR AND STARTED DRIVING HOME.  WHILE DRIVING HOME ROBERT WOULD PULL OVER BESIDE THE ROAD IN DARK PLACES WITH ONLY THE OCCASIONAL CAR DRIVING BY.  HE WAS ASKING ME ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TODAY AND ALL I KNEW TO SAY WAS THAT WE WENT TO THE DEER LEASE.  HE KEPT PRESSING ME ON WHO WAS THERE AND WHAT WE DID ALL I COULD SAY WAS THAT HE AND I WENT TO CHECK OUT HUNTING SPOTS.  HE THEN STARTED TO HIT ME AND TOLD ME TO TELL THE TRUTH AND ALL I COULD ADD WAS I THINK WE SHOT THE GUNS.  THIS INTERROGATION HAPPENED SEVERAL TIMES WITH QUESTIONS LIKE WHAT ANIMALS DID WE SEE WHILE WE WHERE THERE.  I HAD NO ANSWER BUT I GUESSED DEER AND SOME HOGS.  THE MORE HE STOPPED AND THE MORE HE HIT ME THE MORE HE SEEMED TO SETTLE DOWN.  THEN HE STARTED TELLING ME STORIES ABOUT WHY WE WENT AND HOW WE WERE GUNNA GET BIG BUCKS THIS YEAR AND THAT MAYBE I COULD USE THE DEER RIFLE THIS YEAR.  THIS WAS MEANT TO EXCITE ME BUT ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS THAT I DIDN’T WANT HIM TO STOP THE CAR AND HIT ME ANYMORE.  I AGREED WITH ALL HIS STORIES AND ACTED EXCITED AT CERTAIN MOMENTS TO KEEP HIM APPEASED, ALL I COULD REALLY REMEMBER WAS FALLING ASLEEP AND WAKING UP.  (THIS HAS HELPED WITH THE PAIN BUT ITS NOT A RELEASE LIKE I SOMETIMES GET) I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THIS WAS ABOUT OUTSIDE OF THE STANDARD SEX SLAVERY THAT THEY ALL PARTICIPATED IN.  THIS IS THE FIRST TIME STELLA JEAN HAS PARTICIPATED THIS MUCH BUT I ALWAYS KNEW SHE HAD IT IN HER; SHE IS VERY NARCISSISTIC AND SELFISH TO THE CORE.  WHICH IS PROBABLY WHY SHE MARRIED INTO THIS FAMILY IN THE FIRST PLACE.

HAPPY